Shattering the Chains
Current System Configuration: Crushed but hopeful
–Ages of Power by Freedom Call [Power Metal]
[Breakfast] Toast and luncheon meat
[Lunch] Jollibee Champ
[Coffee] CCF-Brew coffee, Usual Starbucks
Lately I’ve been evaluating my teaching, and I really think that I’ve slipped a lot since the start of the year. I don’t know if it’s my emotional struggles that’s causing it, or that I’ve just been trying things that just don’t work. But I’m pretty sure that something is lacking, and it’s mostly my fault.
I’d be a fool to blame everything on my students or the system of the school or my lack of training or the world at large. Something is clearly my fault, and it has to be dealt with.
Furthermore, I don’t really think I have to look very far. The problem is coming from my lack of enthusiasm.
I may have been treating my students like projects, not people. I may have been treating them simply like information vessels. I remember hearing this illustration in grade school, and now that I’ve gone through a seminar (Seven Laws of the Learner), in hindsight I think this illustration is completely wrong. If a teacher does nothing but stuff the students with facts, dumping all the valuable knowledge of this world on them as if it were trash and they were trash bins, what do we get out of them? I realize that I’ve been dumping a lot of the work on them. An unreasonable amount of work. Even my boss noticed that I’ve gotten less patient, more hotheaded, and generally less reasonable than I was last year.
This of course, does not bode well for the job that I so claimed to love. Nevertheless, it’s stil early, and I can still stop the train wreck from happening, by God’s grace. I have to remember that I have nothing to bank on. I was not trained as a teacher, and whatever victories I had during the first year were only by the grace of God. It all boils down to that.
I can’t do it.
But I want to. It’s my calling. I want to break the chains of ignorance and passivity that have been strangling my country for so long. I know how to improve. I know what to do. And by God’s grace, I can do it. Only by His grace. Not by might, not by power, but by His Spirit.
I need to do more. I need to be more. I want to be a mentor, not a tormentor. I want to give these children hope and the strength of heart to be all that they were meant to be. As Chris Bay of Freedom Call would say:
Back to the Ages of Power! It’s time for us to learn!
One day it’s far too late to make the world return!
Arise from the cower! [sic] From the day on we have learned!
It’s high time to break the spell that’s chaining up the world!
Grasping the chains,
Your Black Lion