Current System Configuration: Steadily growing emo again
-Farewell from Avantasia: The Metal Opera. A very good song for missing someone. Like now. Farewell is a beautiful power ballad with a medieval sound. It’s much more melancholic than Freedom Call’s The Wanderer as it’s about the estranged step-siblings Gabriel and Anna meeting again in a dungeon–while Gabriel was escaping. He couldn’t take Anna with him for some reason, so they had to part ways again. Sharon del Adel’s beautiful rendition of Anna’s lines is just breathtaking despite her deep sadness. I’m just glad this sad song ends with Michael Kiske singing Lugaid Vandroiy’s lines:
No farewell could be the last one if you long to meet again…
[Breakfast] Merced raisin bread
[Lunch] PSHS Cafeteria burgers
[Dinner] Sbarro’s broccoli and spinach stuffed pizza.
[Coffee] Absolutely none.
none. Argh, I want to read so badly.
Today was quite productive. PSHS held its first screening exam, and I was one of the proctors. Most of us PSHS teachers are “encouraged” to be proctors anyway. (400 bucks is enough, I guess) Although I messed up some things during the exam, it wasn’t a train wreck. Everything turned out fine in the end.
Something’s been eating away at me this week, though. Perhaps it was triggered by a good number of my students gushing about their crushes. It’s the Stirrings, I guess. Yes, their hormones are acting up, and they’re enjoying it. I guess what gets to me is that they can actually look forward to seeing that special someone everyday, while I can’t.
I wish I was like Jonas in The Giver. All I need to do is take a pill and it will all be gone. But that’s not how life is like, is it? The sad part is that when Jonas stopped taking the pill, he actually had pleasurable dreams. I don’t get any. Apart from the grace of God (which includes the love of my family and students), I feel quite cold. I hate this, I don’t like being bitter. I like being able to show how much I care, and there’s someone in particular I want to show this to.
Just that it isn’t possible.
Longing to meet again,
Your Black Lion